Almost every year, I like to summarise everything that happened that year. I started last year’s post but for some reason, I never finished it. This year was pretty extraordinary for me and to not write about it would be a real shame.

This is a long one. Go get a beverage and some popcorn.

As the title suggests, this year mainly revolves around the awakening that I went through, which included many dark nights of the soul, as they call it. A dark night of the soul is when you experience such a high level of cognitive dissonance, that you start to question your very existence. I’ve always questioned my existence because I always felt like I wasn’t “at home”, but never like this where I had to unlearn everything I knew and relearn everything.

It started more than a year ago when I went through some emotional trauma and I realized I needed to do some work on myself. My eyes began to open about many things, including who I spent time with. While 99% of the people I hung out with are not bad, they didn’t actually add any value to my life and I realized why I was stagnant or not moving as quickly through life as I always imagined I would. Our conversations were not stimulating nor were they focused on growth, and when I met successful people who had achieved the kinds of things I wanted to in my life, my conversations and thought processes started to change.

Activation of my soul path

One night, sometime in February, I dreamt that I had died and that I was moving upwards at supersonic speed. I was surrounded by white light, and the air was cold. It was as if I was standing on top of a rocket. But I was not afraid at all, in fact, I was at peace. I thought that if I did die, that it was ok because I had no regrets, my loved ones would be ok, and whatever was calling me home was safe and loves me. I was prepared to let go.

Then something said “No, you’re not done, there’s something you still need to do”, and I brought myself back to my bed. I woke up with a smile. It was around 3am.

Months later, I found out this event was the activation of my soul path. I’ll explain later.

Lifestyle changes

In the subsequent weeks, I had the desire to let go of things. I cleared out my closet, gave away things I didn’t use, and I sold my car. As much as I loved my BMW, thanks to lockdown, it was sitting in my garage 6 days a week and I still had a balloon payment to cover. It just didn’t make sense for me to pay so much towards it when I wasn’t using it.

I also started to think about my job and where I wanted to be in my career. While I was doing well at my company, I was bored and I couldn’t see myself being there much longer. I had to take the reigns and change that because I was meant to do more.

Towards the end of July, I knew it was time to put myself out there. There was one particular company who I wanted to get in touch with me. I literally didn’t care about anyone else because I knew what I wanted. After 2-3 weeks, although I had started interviewing with other companies, I still hadn’t heard from the one I was waiting for, but I didn’t lose faith.

At the end of the 3rd week, my dream company reached out. I had an informal chat with my potential future manager who ended our conversation by saying “I think we were destined to meet”. Of course we were.

There were 2 formal interviews after that, and before the second one and final one, I decided to meditate. Only, this meditation was different – it was a guided one about manifestation. During that meditation, I was told to feel the emotions of obtaining the thing I wanted as if I was just given it, and I became so emotional that I knew that there was no way this thing wasn’t meant for me.

After that final interview, I felt so high, it was ridiculous. I couldn’t concentrate for the rest of the day, it was as if I was bouncing off the walls. I felt as though I had spoken to old friends.

About a week later, while waiting to hear whether I was successful or not, I heard about the Lion’s Gate Portal and how it was the best time to manifest. I had such a strong feeling about it that I had to take advantage of it. After all, I don’t believe in coincidences, and energy doesn’t lie. It was Saturday 28 August and according to what I saw, it was the last day of the Lion’s Gate portal window.

That night, I took a piece of paper and wrote down what I wanted with specific details. I said the following:

• I am grateful I resigned from my job at (my current company) on 31 August 2021
• I am grateful I signed my new contract on 1 September 2021
• I am grateful to start at (my new company) on 1 October 2021

I then placed the piece of paper on a chair in my backyard and left it overnight. I did not put any sort of weight on it because I thought it would be good if the full page was exposed to the moonlight. Yeah, I’m kinda weird like that.

When I checked it the next morning, it was in exactly the same place.

On Monday, 30 August, I got the offer letter from the new company. I resigned on 31 August, and I started on 1 October.

Friendship circle changes

My belief system completely flipped this year and like I said earlier, everything I thought I knew changed. I suddenly had a strong feeling of responsibility that I couldn’t explain. I’ve always wanted to save the world, and the pull to do that was like nothing I had ever felt before. I just knew deep in my soul that something was off, and I had to do something about it.

When the topic came about with a group of friends I’ve known for most of my life, the conversation became hostile with one friend in particular because she had a strongly conflicting view. I tried to keep the conversation as respectful as possible, but when I thought she had crossed the line by putting me in the same category as others, I snapped and retaliated with anger. I felt that way because I knew far more than what I let on and thought she knew me long enough to know that I would never have ill intentions. My integrity was questioned and that is something I will never tolerate.

What I did do wrong was leave the group without clarifying with the others that I was not directing my message at them, so I felt horrible. The fight was between me and the one friend in particular, who I then had a lengthy private conversation with to empathize with her because I realized she was probably also coming from a place of responsibility that she thought was right. At the end of the conversation though, I could see that she wanted to end the friendship and that no matter what I said, she didn’t want to listen. Frankly, although she accused me of having an ego, it was clear that it was hers that came out because she had a higher educational qualification than me and so did her husband. In her eyes, she was superior to me and showed that feeling by throwing her title and methods of working at me. It was such a shame because I never make friends based on their status.

When South Africa was going through hell in July with the rioting, I texted her to check if her parents were ok, since they live in Durban where the main rioting was happening, only to find out that she blocked me on Whatsapp. She also restricted my viewing on Facebook so I could only see her posts from January and before. I don’t know how she did that, but clearly, there was a deeper dislike for me that I had never really seen before.

Remember this: Your education does not equal intelligence. In fact, the more qualified you are, the more indoctrinated you are in that way of thinking, and you have to actively learn other things in order to build up your overall knowledge. Intelligence is the desire to learn more. Simple.

In terms of my other friends, I apologized to each of them individually, but I knew things would never be the same again. I just hope they all know that I still love and care for them all, especially their children, and I hope I see them all again. If not, I wish them well anyway.

Sometimes we need to let go in order to move on.

The black panther

I had 3 more significant dreams this year, and 2 of them were of a black panther.

In the first one, the panther was walking in front of me in a protective way as if it was leading the way, but close enough to brush up against my leg. It was affectionate and turned back and gave me a warm smile as if to say that it loved me and had my back.

In the second one, we were at my parents’ house and the panther stood on its hind legs to hug me like a person. My mother was in the background smiling at us with an intrigued look on her face. The panther didn’t want to let go of me; it was like a big baby, and it was happy. We had a very strong bond, and I felt as though I had found myself in a way.

The panther and I were one. It was as if I had met the real version of myself.

My last past life

Around the same time that all this was happening, I saw my energy healer for the first time in about a year. She asked if anything significant had happened to me about 6 months prior because that’s when my soul path got activated – it was the dream about dying.

She then told me about a past life that she saw. I was a princess in India who lived in a palace. My father was the king, and I was married to the love of my life. I was poisoned to death and I died in my husband’s arms. Our love was so strong that it made my energy healer cry because she could feel our hearts breaking as I died. I was slowly poisoned to death by my cousin, that’s why it was hard to detect as she did it over several months. She was insanely jealous of me and wanted to steal my husband. She never got him, and she died a horrible death.

My energy healer then asked if I have any enemies in this lifetime that are female. I really don’t, but for some reason, that friend I mentioned above came to mind and I said that she’s not an enemy, but we recently parted ways and it ended really badly. I then showed her a group picture we had taken almost 20 years ago and pointed her out. When she read her energy, she identified that friend as the cousin who had poisoned me in my past life. Their energies matched.

My mind was blown, to put it mildly. My mother told me at least 25 years ago that this friend was jealous of me, but I never saw it. This hatred was older than I could have ever imagined.

As much as it pained me, that was my cue to delete her number and remove her from my friend list on Facebook. After all, she had already blocked and restricted me anyway. I still think about what happened, but it was all part of freeing my soul. It really is a pity, especially because I love her children so much and I fear I may never see them again.

As a side note, learning about this past love, how strong it was, and how badly it ended is the reason why I have been single my entire life, and why I end things after the first or second date with most men. It’s because I’m waiting for him: the one I was separated from who is also looking for me in this life. I will not settle for anyone less.

Lyra

My energy healer also read into my dreams about the black panther, since those stood out for me so much. She then revealed that it was because I am a Starseed from the Lyra constellation. Yes, the universe is big enough for other beings to exist. Starseeds are here to create a new world. Some of us are born in our earthly bodies while others walk in to our earthly bodies later. I as the Starseed woke up the night my soul path got activated, hence my great sense of purpose.

For those who don’t know, the beings that reside in this constellation are called Lyrans, and they are feline-like beings. They are very tall and are said to have visited Ancient Egypt. This is why the Egyptians worshipped cats and many of their Gods, like Sekhmet, are cats. In fact, if anything, it was the Lyrans that built the pyramids! But who knows…that’s just my opinion.

I also had a past life in Ancient Egypt which totally explains my obsession with it ever since I was really young. In that life, I was with a friend who ‘randomly’ came back into my life after our brief meeting approximately 8 years ago – she and I met the energy healer together when this was revealed. It didn’t surprise us at all in fact, because we already knew we had a deeper connection beyond this life.

Knowing about being a Lyran Starseed gave me a great sense of identity and purpose, and I felt as though I understood myself a lot better because it connected all the dots I had thrown up in the air my whole life. It explained why cats I have never seen before feel comfortable around me and want to nuzzle up against or sleep on me. It also explained why I am totally against anything Draconian which I am seeing a lot of in the world right now.

Lemuria

When I saw my energy healer again several weeks later, I took my best friend with me. Both of us are obsessed with Ancient Egypt and, if you’ve been reading my blog for a while, you’d know we went to Egypt together too.

The moment we stepped in front of my energy healer, she read our energies and told us that we were sisters in at least 3 past lives, one of which was Ancient Egypt. I can’t really explain the emotion we felt in that moment, but in this instance as well, it just confirmed what we already knew. No wonder our bond is so strong.

After this reading, my true identity came out. I used to be a high priestess during the Lemurian era, one that lead hundreds of thousands of women to fulfill the path of the divine feminine. I carried a staff and wore a sort of tiara with an emerald jewel. No wonder I’ve always loved emerald green. My best friend was my sister in this age too.

According to my energy healer, my true self is surfacing and my purpose in this life is the same – to lead the divine feminine down the right path in the form of a massive movement, one of many, that will take humanity to the next level of consciousness and evolution. This is why, particularly in the last 8-10 months, I have been so vocal about my opinion on things. I am fulfilling my divine purpose.

I always knew I was an old soul, but only now do I truly understand just how old.

War

We have a war to fight, people. This is a fight between good and evil on a spiritual level so deep that most will not understand. In the Hindu scriptures, we call it Kalyug.

The good news is that good is going to win, but it will get worse before it gets better. We are heading towards Satyug, the Golden Age, and I actually can’t wait.

Hang in there, stand your ground, and fight for your rights and especially for the rights of your children. Protect them. Do not hold back your motherly instinct – it is there for a reason. While I do not have any children of my own, the women of this world are like my children and I will fight for you.

Men, this is your time too. Show the world what true masculinity is and the divine feminine will rise even stronger. We need you.